Imminent death tickles the brain cells
And here I am reliving my whole life.
These people in hospital says that
I don’t feel or remember a thing.
But, here I am, with tubes attached and
machines connected to my body
Knowing it all, hearing it all;
With plenteous memories
Like pictures drawn in a clear sky.
Memories in different colors and shades
From the tragic black to the joyous blue
All taking up various forms.
Midst of it all rises up a figure,
And I know it is you.
As a flower is in love with the wind from the time it is budded,
So was I in love with you much before I blossomed.
I knew all your flaws and weakness
Yet my love was not envious.
I never tried to own or disown you
Because I knew my soul was connected to you.
All I had to offer you was
My imperfect love and mind in chaos.
But I never knew
You could see perfection in imperfection
You could find peace in chaos.
Like a meandering river changing the course,
In the winding path of life I strayed from you.
The baffled frantic me
Searched for you everywhere
In people, in hobbies, in duties
All in vain
Little did I knew
My journey was to you and
There was always a new channel.
Now it is not long before the curtain will fall
All these memories will be faded in shade.
Today I understand,
All my life was a quest for you;
While you were always within me.
You are my forever love,
My only consort!